To Be Or Not To Be?

I happened to read my horoscope for today when I opened my Yahoo page and here is what it has to say:

Nonstop activity keeps you extremely entertained today, whether you’re watching from the sidelines or you’re actively involved. If you do choose to hop into the middle of the action, you can sway the entire crowd and make a real difference — so consider rolling up your sleeves and diving in. You’ll have the energy you need to stick with it through to the end. Right now your diplomacy skills are only outmatched by your ability to charm the pants off of anyone.

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I really hate myself for being of two minds over something specifically when it comes to work these days. Whenever I wake up and realizes that in a few more hours and I have to get ready for work, I always feel this urge to quit. Yup, you may say that it’s normal but probably not if it is just your second week doing the actual work. However there is a side of me that cries that I persevere in it more and that I can actually do it given the proper time to adjust. Actually I think I’m getting a hang of it already.

When I was working in an industrial park just near our place, I always wanted to have a job in Manila. Now I am starting to realize the value of proximity and accessibility. I wish to go back to that place, but in a better company that is. It is really tiresome to allot at least a total of five hours just to go to work and back.

I think I also can’t live up with the rules that are imposed on us. I actually have a rebellious spirit and the more rules you impose, the greater you kindle it. I may not deliberately break the rules but in my heart there is a growing despise for it which I think is worst than the former. Breaking the rules destroys your performance, records, and metrics; but the latter rottens your heart and destroys your spirit.

I don’t really believe in horoscopes. I think I need some time to think about this.